Delusions of Grandeur

by A Trivial Hero

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This is the debut, acoustic album from A Trivial Hero. Self-recorded, self-released, and solely self-listened to, Delusions of Grandeur is an album that is truly represented by its title as its creator believes it to be much better than it actually is.

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released November 7, 2013

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Track Name: A Me-Complex
I’m still a badass
Still pulling the same old tricks
And I’d still disrupt class
Because attention gets me my fix

So the story goes
And it repeats
Putting so much effort
Into these mindless feats
One day their god will say
“Should I be impressed?”

So we’re still holding on
To what makes us young
Just kill me the day
I stop having fun

I’m still a loser
I still wear that as my badge
And I commend my accuser
For being so quick to attach

So I reek of failure
That leads to success
Different connotation
Says “experience”
And the faithful say
“Act at his behest”

And we’re so pathetic
And it’s in your name
If this were my creation
I’d be ashamed

So are you proud at this time
Because that’s not what I would say
Maybe on your second try
You shouldn’t rest on the seventh day

So the story goes
And they say “Amen”
Put in so much effort
For these mindless men
And one day I’ll respond
“Should I be impressed?”
Track Name: My Name for God
Yeah, I’ve been lost before
Trying to get nowhere
And I got there
And I’ve held back before
Trying to do nothing
And I did

I see you trying to quit
Hoping you’ll finally succeed
I see you trying to drown
But I don’t see why you don’t see

Someone out there is waiting for you
Stop wasting their time
Someone right here is counting on you
Don’t waste my time

Call it hope
Call it love
Call me anytime
We’ll build the home
You’ve been dreaming of
And I’ll show you the sunshine

Yeah, I’ve destroyed before
Forgot I could create
So I housed hate
And I’ve felt defeat before
Thought that I wasn’t enough
So I gave up

You’re at the foot of the mountain
Thinking you can’t climb
I’ve looked up from there before
And on the other side

Someone out there is waiting for you
To stop wasting your time
And someone right here is counting on you
Don’t waste my time

Call it hope
Call it love
Call me anytime
We’ll build the home
You’ve been dreaming of
And I’ll show you the sunshine

Why don’t you do this for me?
Why don’t you hand me the key?
I can’t

Call it hope
Call it love
Call me anytime
We’ll build the home
You’ve been dreaming of
And I’ll show you the sunshine
Track Name: The Pen
I’m feeling something special
A little more than carnal
You’ve got me all mixed up but
I’m trying to be hopeful

‘Cause we’ve really just begun
Hardly out of chapter one

Haven’t had luck with my heart
Never in my past no
So I’m looking for something worth risk
Got to make it last oh

So my heart’s shaking my cage
Working on the next page

Of my romance novel
Please don’t turn into a tragedy
I wish I were the one holding the pen
Because this author’s hostile
And he’s clearly got it out for me
As I always wind up lonely in the end

This chapter’s our fifth date and
So far so good girl
We’re zipping through these pages
Just like we should girl

We can’t have this plot collapse
I can’t wait for the climax

Of my romance novel
Please don’t turn into a tragedy
I wish I were the one holding the pen
Because this author’s hostile
And he’s clearly got it out for me
As I always wind up lonely in the end

No this is the part where he flips the script
And we crash and burn
But I say not this time
It’s my turn
I’ll take it in my own hands
I’ve got much different plans

This is my romance novel
I’ll save it from this tragedy
As I think I am the one holding the pen
There’s no author with ill will
Clearly it’s just been up to me
And I think it’s time I write my happy end

To my romance novel (We each hold our own pen)
I’ll save it from this tragedy
As I think I am the one holding the pen
There’s no author with ill will (We each hold our own pen)
Clearly it’s just been up to me
And I think it’s time I write my happy end
Track Name: Self-Actualize or Survive
I’ve turned Maslow upside down
I still don’t know what I want
Anticipation’s building
Certain demise is looming
And I’m just trying to survive

I’m trapped in my mind again
You think that I’m wasting my life
I’m worried by temptations
With these words that can cut like a knife

I’m not scared by consequences
But I’m afraid that I might like

I’ve turned myself inside out
I still don’t know who I am
Limits are so frustrating
This body’s suffocating
And I’m out of places to hide

I’m locking my heart up now
These wounds have still yet to heal
I’m repressing my instincts down
I want to forget I can feel

It’s not that I don’t like affection
It’s that I’m just too scarred

Maybe it’s already over
And I am destined to ask
Or maybe I’m wasting my time
Doing a trivial task

I’ve turned Maslow upside down
Or is it right side up?
I could spend my time
Trying to self actualize
Or am I just trying to survive?
Track Name: A Pivoting Mind
I like unperforated edges
They seem more natural
I spend my days peeking over the hedges
Wondering what’s out in the world

I like the sound of the snare drum
The way it bangs and it rasps
I know this music barely acts as a fulcrum
For the silly things my head grasps

So count me off one too many times
And deal me in to the conversation

I like director’s cut endings
The artist’s unaltered view
Call me pretentious or say I’m pretending
But critics only hate what they can’t do

I like used books full of highlights
And notes scribbled down below
See a story through a stranger’s strange eyes
Learn things I would’ve never known

So count me out of my own mind
And wheel me in past the nurse’s station

I like yearbooks and collages
Mixed-tapes and home videos
Piano recitals and bands in garages
Who needs audience for a good show?

I like the songs without hooks now
Hardly a chorus in sight
If only I could ever learn how
To translate what I like to what I write

So count me in while I’m in my prime
And reel me in to the celebration

I like unperforated edges
I like unperforated edges
Track Name: Progression of Thought
The claws are out
Yeah, I will bury you with words and rumors
She’s on the ropes
She’s going down for the count
We play these games
It’s funny what you value in a world so small
Everyone plays
Don’t try to deny your part

And this is the life we’ve chosen
Playing servants to what they say
Maybe one day the cycle will be broken
Much to the plastic mannequin’s dismay

She’s walking out
Despite my best efforts with words and humor
She’s got my hopes
Tossing them in the lost and found
Strings keep me sane
It’s funny how much you can lose from summer to fall
Still counting days
How long until I fix my heart?

I’m lucky for what’s on my shoulders
Gives me a leg up in these games we play
It may get easier as we get older
But as of now it’s hard for me to say

Dangerous route
We are becoming this world’s biggest tumor
Slippery slopes
Certainly we’re hell bound
We’ll point the blame
It’s funny what you value when you hear the piper’s call
Souls set ablaze
Or maybe bugs back at the start

And this is the life we’ve chosen
Playing servants to what they say
Maybe one day the cycle will be broken
Much to our leaders’ and our gods’ dismay
Track Name: Fiction's Pseudonym
There's got to be an easy way
Out of this one
Isn't there another answer
As easy as god?

Be my escape
Be my drug
Be my good faith
My unwavering love

(Be my hope)

There's got to be a way to cheat this
Bend around the rules
I love this life, can't I keep it?
I'll gladly follow these fools

Be my magician
My superman
My church, my religion
My final solution
The thing that makes no sense
Yet somehow keeps me sane
Be my saving grace

It's simply fiction by another name
Track Name: Fighting Chemistry
I’m fighting chemistry ‘cause I’m
Stronger than that
And I want this world to see that we’re
Not dependant

On chemical reactions that convince us to smile
Why don’t we change our actions to something more worthwhile?
The easy and automatic will just hurt you in the end
But you’ll still turn to the bottle again

I can watch you drown but
I can’t save you
‘Cause they’re your decisions now and I
Know what you’ll choose

And while that’s saddening that
That’s our bean flick
We’re all victims of chemistry
It’s an epidemic

We’re all looking for
Our next fix
But I guess that’s our future
Popping pills and turning tricks

I’m fighting chemistry ‘cause I’m
Stronger than that and I
Want this world to see that we’re
Not dependant
Track Name: Hyper-Rational Fear
I’d love to write tonight
But I cannot seem to get Plato off my mind
I’d like to crawl inside
But am just reminded of Magic and his plight

So maybe it’s just hopeless
To think I could stop thinking
I should befriend the homeless
Enlist all that they’re drinking

‘Cause I’m overthought
And undermined
Sabotaged
By my own mind
Always overwrought
Yet undefined
I am

I’d try to run away
But fear Chris Childress and I might go the same way
I’d give myself to art
But like Brandon Lee I’d play the victim to my part

I know these fears are silly
But they shall always haunt
I’ll just have to be willing
To run the risk of getting cut out of this plot

‘Cause I’m under-sought
Self over-hyped
A decoupage
Of those before my time
Storage garage
Collecting grime
Is what I am

Don’t dismiss irrationality
You don’t know what I could manifest
I’ve accepted that I’m crazy
I just learned to hide it; manic at rest
Guard the impressionable from me
I know not what I’ll next manifest
And to be honest, that’s what scares me

Overthought
And undermined
Sabotaged
By my intervening mind
Always overwrought
Still undefined
I am
Track Name: My Failing Grade
I’ve got you on my mind
No way to get you out
So we’ll play this little game of mine
For the next blank I need a proper noun

Yeah, I can crunch some numbers
Or make the honor roll
I’d dominate until my thumb hurts
But I still can’t fill this gaping hole

Apparently girls aren’t impressed
By my mad skills on the 64
Unfortunately it’s not sexy
To see an ‘A’ on my grade report

She’s got an eye for danger
But I only cut with words
In a world of cops, I’m a fucking park ranger
Why aren’t girls more into nerds?

Apparently girls aren’t impressed
By my mad skills on the 64
Unfortunately it’s not sexy
To see an ‘A’ on my grade report

So what if they’d call me smart?
I’ve still got this heart
With no solution

I’ve tried to solve this path
But it’s not math
Leading to my confusion

I can know all that there is to know (I can own all that there is to own)
But success isn’t success when you’re alone
And that’s why I’ll only know failure

Apparently girls aren’t impressed
By my mad skills on the 64
Unfortunately it’s not sexy
To see an ‘A’ on my grade report
Track Name: Lonely Goat
I’m not Max Bemis, Michael Burkett
Samuel Clemens, Oscar Wylde
Matthew Groening, Chinua Achebe
Demetri Martin, Tina Fey

I’m a narcissist with a six-string
CD collection, English Degree
Amounts to nothing of great interest
A life unnoticed, unless you’re me

I am a man
I am a child
I am a mind defiled

My head creates, ideas fizzle
These words are hollow, hardly poetry
The abstract mind makes abstract things
Changed to language the bored mouth sings

Socially anxious, sarcastic shield
So pain deflects away from me
Hide inside humor away from real
Buried in all literary

We are but men
We are but children
This is not the future
That we envisioned

I am a man
I am a child
I am a mind run wild

And they’ll be but gods
They’ll be but gods

I’m not Max Bemis, Michael Burkett
Samuel Clemens, Oscar Wylde
Matthew Groening, Chinua Achebe
Demetri Martin, Tina Fey

Theo Geisel, Harper Lee
Robert Frost, Paul McCartney
MynamesnotMark, nor Matt nor Trey
Justin Pierre or Dr. Dre

Leonard Tolstoy, Dostoevsky
Anton Chekhov, Freddy Mercury
Neal Peart, David Grohl
Tony Keidis, William Joel

Not John nor Luke nor Mark nor Paul
I lost the light and became Saul
I’m not a prophet, I don’t talk to him
I read his book and learned his sins

I’m no Mahatma, Mohammed
My blood’s not wine, flesh is no bread
I can’t be God ‘cause I preach love
We’re all one level, nothing I’m above
Track Name: Shining in the Light
Oh, I’ve been hiding out in the dark
I thought I could burn brighter with a contrast so stark

‘Cause I’m not your doctor, your preacher
Your most influential teacher
I am just a man with a guitar

But I’ve got these sounds I can make with my mouth
That make the world feel better
In past have been used to harvest hate

And I understand why we want to watch
As others fall
It may make it seem like we stand taller
Though we don’t at all

I used to fear admitting how great things are would make this world grow pale
So I kept it to myself, instead tearing things down for the illusion of the great and the power

But I’ve got these lines that I can draw with pen and paper
To reveal truth
The same tools have been used to destroy

And it’s probably all my fault that I’m hardly used at all
Yeah, it’s all my fault I’m underused, misused

Though I’ve got these sounds I can make with my mouth
That make the world feel better
And I’ve got these lines that I can draw with pen and paper
To reveal truth
And I’ve got this love in my heart, that when let out
Helps to warm a globe grown cold
And it’s time I share what’s inside me

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