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Delusions of Grandeur

by A Trivial Hero

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1.
A Me-Complex 03:33
I’m still a badass Still pulling the same old tricks And I’d still disrupt class Because attention gets me my fix So the story goes And it repeats Putting so much effort Into these mindless feats One day their god will say “Should I be impressed?” So we’re still holding on To what makes us young Just kill me the day I stop having fun I’m still a loser I still wear that as my badge And I commend my accuser For being so quick to attach So I reek of failure That leads to success Different connotation Says “experience” And the faithful say “Act at his behest” And we’re so pathetic And it’s in your name If this were my creation I’d be ashamed So are you proud at this time Because that’s not what I would say Maybe on your second try You shouldn’t rest on the seventh day So the story goes And they say “Amen” Put in so much effort For these mindless men And one day I’ll respond “Should I be impressed?”
2.
Yeah, I’ve been lost before Trying to get nowhere And I got there And I’ve held back before Trying to do nothing And I did I see you trying to quit Hoping you’ll finally succeed I see you trying to drown But I don’t see why you don’t see Someone out there is waiting for you Stop wasting their time Someone right here is counting on you Don’t waste my time Call it hope Call it love Call me anytime We’ll build the home You’ve been dreaming of And I’ll show you the sunshine Yeah, I’ve destroyed before Forgot I could create So I housed hate And I’ve felt defeat before Thought that I wasn’t enough So I gave up You’re at the foot of the mountain Thinking you can’t climb I’ve looked up from there before And on the other side Someone out there is waiting for you To stop wasting your time And someone right here is counting on you Don’t waste my time Call it hope Call it love Call me anytime We’ll build the home You’ve been dreaming of And I’ll show you the sunshine Why don’t you do this for me? Why don’t you hand me the key? I can’t Call it hope Call it love Call me anytime We’ll build the home You’ve been dreaming of And I’ll show you the sunshine
3.
The Pen 03:30
I’m feeling something special A little more than carnal You’ve got me all mixed up but I’m trying to be hopeful ‘Cause we’ve really just begun Hardly out of chapter one Haven’t had luck with my heart Never in my past no So I’m looking for something worth risk Got to make it last oh So my heart’s shaking my cage Working on the next page Of my romance novel Please don’t turn into a tragedy I wish I were the one holding the pen Because this author’s hostile And he’s clearly got it out for me As I always wind up lonely in the end This chapter’s our fifth date and So far so good girl We’re zipping through these pages Just like we should girl We can’t have this plot collapse I can’t wait for the climax Of my romance novel Please don’t turn into a tragedy I wish I were the one holding the pen Because this author’s hostile And he’s clearly got it out for me As I always wind up lonely in the end No this is the part where he flips the script And we crash and burn But I say not this time It’s my turn I’ll take it in my own hands I’ve got much different plans This is my romance novel I’ll save it from this tragedy As I think I am the one holding the pen There’s no author with ill will Clearly it’s just been up to me And I think it’s time I write my happy end To my romance novel (We each hold our own pen) I’ll save it from this tragedy As I think I am the one holding the pen There’s no author with ill will (We each hold our own pen) Clearly it’s just been up to me And I think it’s time I write my happy end
4.
I’ve turned Maslow upside down I still don’t know what I want Anticipation’s building Certain demise is looming And I’m just trying to survive I’m trapped in my mind again You think that I’m wasting my life I’m worried by temptations With these words that can cut like a knife I’m not scared by consequences But I’m afraid that I might like I’ve turned myself inside out I still don’t know who I am Limits are so frustrating This body’s suffocating And I’m out of places to hide I’m locking my heart up now These wounds have still yet to heal I’m repressing my instincts down I want to forget I can feel It’s not that I don’t like affection It’s that I’m just too scarred Maybe it’s already over And I am destined to ask Or maybe I’m wasting my time Doing a trivial task I’ve turned Maslow upside down Or is it right side up? I could spend my time Trying to self actualize Or am I just trying to survive?
5.
I like unperforated edges They seem more natural I spend my days peeking over the hedges Wondering what’s out in the world I like the sound of the snare drum The way it bangs and it rasps I know this music barely acts as a fulcrum For the silly things my head grasps So count me off one too many times And deal me in to the conversation I like director’s cut endings The artist’s unaltered view Call me pretentious or say I’m pretending But critics only hate what they can’t do I like used books full of highlights And notes scribbled down below See a story through a stranger’s strange eyes Learn things I would’ve never known So count me out of my own mind And wheel me in past the nurse’s station I like yearbooks and collages Mixed-tapes and home videos Piano recitals and bands in garages Who needs audience for a good show? I like the songs without hooks now Hardly a chorus in sight If only I could ever learn how To translate what I like to what I write So count me in while I’m in my prime And reel me in to the celebration I like unperforated edges I like unperforated edges
6.
The claws are out Yeah, I will bury you with words and rumors She’s on the ropes She’s going down for the count We play these games It’s funny what you value in a world so small Everyone plays Don’t try to deny your part And this is the life we’ve chosen Playing servants to what they say Maybe one day the cycle will be broken Much to the plastic mannequin’s dismay She’s walking out Despite my best efforts with words and humor She’s got my hopes Tossing them in the lost and found Strings keep me sane It’s funny how much you can lose from summer to fall Still counting days How long until I fix my heart? I’m lucky for what’s on my shoulders Gives me a leg up in these games we play It may get easier as we get older But as of now it’s hard for me to say Dangerous route We are becoming this world’s biggest tumor Slippery slopes Certainly we’re hell bound We’ll point the blame It’s funny what you value when you hear the piper’s call Souls set ablaze Or maybe bugs back at the start And this is the life we’ve chosen Playing servants to what they say Maybe one day the cycle will be broken Much to our leaders’ and our gods’ dismay
7.
There's got to be an easy way Out of this one Isn't there another answer As easy as god? Be my escape Be my drug Be my good faith My unwavering love (Be my hope) There's got to be a way to cheat this Bend around the rules I love this life, can't I keep it? I'll gladly follow these fools Be my magician My superman My church, my religion My final solution The thing that makes no sense Yet somehow keeps me sane Be my saving grace It's simply fiction by another name
8.
I’m fighting chemistry ‘cause I’m Stronger than that And I want this world to see that we’re Not dependant On chemical reactions that convince us to smile Why don’t we change our actions to something more worthwhile? The easy and automatic will just hurt you in the end But you’ll still turn to the bottle again I can watch you drown but I can’t save you ‘Cause they’re your decisions now and I Know what you’ll choose And while that’s saddening that That’s our bean flick We’re all victims of chemistry It’s an epidemic We’re all looking for Our next fix But I guess that’s our future Popping pills and turning tricks I’m fighting chemistry ‘cause I’m Stronger than that and I Want this world to see that we’re Not dependant
9.
I’d love to write tonight But I cannot seem to get Plato off my mind I’d like to crawl inside But am just reminded of Magic and his plight So maybe it’s just hopeless To think I could stop thinking I should befriend the homeless Enlist all that they’re drinking ‘Cause I’m overthought And undermined Sabotaged By my own mind Always overwrought Yet undefined I am I’d try to run away But fear Chris Childress and I might go the same way I’d give myself to art But like Brandon Lee I’d play the victim to my part I know these fears are silly But they shall always haunt I’ll just have to be willing To run the risk of getting cut out of this plot ‘Cause I’m under-sought Self over-hyped A decoupage Of those before my time Storage garage Collecting grime Is what I am Don’t dismiss irrationality You don’t know what I could manifest I’ve accepted that I’m crazy I just learned to hide it; manic at rest Guard the impressionable from me I know not what I’ll next manifest And to be honest, that’s what scares me Overthought And undermined Sabotaged By my intervening mind Always overwrought Still undefined I am
10.
I’ve got you on my mind No way to get you out So we’ll play this little game of mine For the next blank I need a proper noun Yeah, I can crunch some numbers Or make the honor roll I’d dominate until my thumb hurts But I still can’t fill this gaping hole Apparently girls aren’t impressed By my mad skills on the 64 Unfortunately it’s not sexy To see an ‘A’ on my grade report She’s got an eye for danger But I only cut with words In a world of cops, I’m a fucking park ranger Why aren’t girls more into nerds? Apparently girls aren’t impressed By my mad skills on the 64 Unfortunately it’s not sexy To see an ‘A’ on my grade report So what if they’d call me smart? I’ve still got this heart With no solution I’ve tried to solve this path But it’s not math Leading to my confusion I can know all that there is to know (I can own all that there is to own) But success isn’t success when you’re alone And that’s why I’ll only know failure Apparently girls aren’t impressed By my mad skills on the 64 Unfortunately it’s not sexy To see an ‘A’ on my grade report
11.
Lonely Goat 03:48
I’m not Max Bemis, Michael Burkett Samuel Clemens, Oscar Wylde Matthew Groening, Chinua Achebe Demetri Martin, Tina Fey I’m a narcissist with a six-string CD collection, English Degree Amounts to nothing of great interest A life unnoticed, unless you’re me I am a man I am a child I am a mind defiled My head creates, ideas fizzle These words are hollow, hardly poetry The abstract mind makes abstract things Changed to language the bored mouth sings Socially anxious, sarcastic shield So pain deflects away from me Hide inside humor away from real Buried in all literary We are but men We are but children This is not the future That we envisioned I am a man I am a child I am a mind run wild And they’ll be but gods They’ll be but gods I’m not Max Bemis, Michael Burkett Samuel Clemens, Oscar Wylde Matthew Groening, Chinua Achebe Demetri Martin, Tina Fey Theo Geisel, Harper Lee Robert Frost, Paul McCartney MynamesnotMark, nor Matt nor Trey Justin Pierre or Dr. Dre Leonard Tolstoy, Dostoevsky Anton Chekhov, Freddy Mercury Neal Peart, David Grohl Tony Keidis, William Joel Not John nor Luke nor Mark nor Paul I lost the light and became Saul I’m not a prophet, I don’t talk to him I read his book and learned his sins I’m no Mahatma, Mohammed My blood’s not wine, flesh is no bread I can’t be God ‘cause I preach love We’re all one level, nothing I’m above
12.
Oh, I’ve been hiding out in the dark I thought I could burn brighter with a contrast so stark ‘Cause I’m not your doctor, your preacher Your most influential teacher I am just a man with a guitar But I’ve got these sounds I can make with my mouth That make the world feel better In past have been used to harvest hate And I understand why we want to watch As others fall It may make it seem like we stand taller Though we don’t at all I used to fear admitting how great things are would make this world grow pale So I kept it to myself, instead tearing things down for the illusion of the great and the power But I’ve got these lines that I can draw with pen and paper To reveal truth The same tools have been used to destroy And it’s probably all my fault that I’m hardly used at all Yeah, it’s all my fault I’m underused, misused Though I’ve got these sounds I can make with my mouth That make the world feel better And I’ve got these lines that I can draw with pen and paper To reveal truth And I’ve got this love in my heart, that when let out Helps to warm a globe grown cold And it’s time I share what’s inside me

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This is the debut, acoustic album from A Trivial Hero. Self-recorded, self-released, and solely self-listened to, Delusions of Grandeur is an album that is truly represented by its title as its creator believes it to be much better than it actually is.

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released November 7, 2013

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