Promises to Myself

by A Trivial Hero

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For everyone that is constantly saying they know they can be better, bigger stronger, smarter, more brave, more kind, more motivated - this album is for you, for us. A great way to put out all my New Year's Resolutions and say "This is about me and what I want/need. It is not about anybody else." So take more of the eclectic sound, throw in a ukulele, some shakers, and a bongo cajon, and you end up with A Trivial Hero's Third self-released album in as many months.

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released January 14, 2014

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Track Name: Promises to Myself
I swear this story is not yours
That's not to say you weren't influential
I promise this life will not be yours
But that's not to say I'll never share

So please don't take it back
All the things you used to push me farther
I'll never give them back
I'll pack them up and drive
And I'll write my whole life
Track Name: Sustenance
I know this world won't wait for me
It keeps on turning
So I'll keep learning to love
'Cause I'm just where I'm supposed to be
Not where I planned it
I'll never understand it, but
Things will all work out for us you'll see
The stars will guide us
There's something inside us

The universe is written on our bones
I feel it coursing inside of me
The same hand that's writing our future
Wrote our history

So give me words
Give me books
Give me music
Find your talent
And learn how to use it
To give me art
Give me love
Give me art give me love
I swear I'll
Give you words
Give you books
Give you music
Refine my talent
And learn how to use it
To create art
Create love
Create art
Create love
And then you'll
Give me words
Give me books
Give me music
Find your talent
And learn how to use it
To give me art
Give me love
Give me art give me love
I swear I'll
Give you words
Give you books
Give you music
Refine my talent
And learn how to use it
To create art
Create love
Create art
Create love for life (Tonight)
Track Name: We Shall See
Don't make me out to be a hero yet
These words are nothing but empty promises
Combined with chords, the thoughts might fill your head
Until we take to action, they're only things we've said

Harbor hate for no one
Rid myself of possessions
Use my gifts only for the good
See the world as the children

Don't make me out to be the next prophet
These songs are ramblings, babble at best
These melodies can't get the starving fed
So hold me to my word until my time on this Earth ends

Free myself from anger
Envy those with nothing
Rule my world from the inside
Be the teacher I can be

Don't make me out to be a hero yet
These words are nothing but empty promises
Combined with chords, the thoughts might fill your head
Until we take to action, they're only things we've said
Hold me to my word until this Earth ends
Track Name: Reflections at 23
I was always a loud one
Always had an answer
Reinforced in the classroom
A smart mouth that moved faster than my mind
Conscience: Non-existent
Blame it on adolescence
Learn the lessons the hard way
Driving friends other places

Is this the type of apology you get from a smart-ass?

At age 12, picked up 6-strings
Certainly thought impressive
Wrote songs that I thought I should
Singing things that I knew nothing about
High school left me numb then
Though without medication
Just the wasted potential
Of all my friends and me

If you're waiting for the part where I turn it all around, I'm not sure we get there

At 18, got my heart broke
And dove into depression
Head-first with a frown on
As if it was my only choice
Rebuilt walls of sarcasm
Decorated my island
Saved by education
Clocked in from 8 to 5

Sometimes the things we don't want to do are what we need to get where we want

Earned degree with high standing
While still earning a living
Some say I should be proud of that
But I just put in the time
Got trapped in the comfort
Of commas in my bank account
But digits will mean nothing
Until they are all gone

I was always a loud one
But now I'm all out of answers
So the world is my classroom
But it turns so much faster than I'd like
So I'll pack up my 6-strings
and get lost on a highway
Learn my lessons the fun way
Driving other places
Track Name: Voluntary Confinement
I want to go to sleep
Lose every memory
Run off without fear of hurting anyone
I want to climb aboard
A boat, never see shore
Crawl below deck and hide from the sun
And I'd have such fun

I want to flee this town
Ride the waves of my sounds
Surf couches, flipping cushions for spare dimes
I'd like to sink my teeth
Into what lies beneath
This world of poppy, self-betraying crimes
That I commit

(Commit Me)

I know I've lost
To the new white man's burden
I paid the cost
For the comfort I live in
Track Name: A Eulogy for Punk
Oh god, I'm Dawson in a sea of Paceys
And it has got me pacing nights
I'm Gwyneth Paltrow's head meets Kevin Spacey
Yeah, I think I need a night-light

Next, I am hobbled by Miss Kathy Bates
As I have sold my artistic soul
So Sartre surrounds me by all that I hate
Still I can't walk out the door

So give me anything else
Please take me anywhere else
And make me anyone else I don't know

Now I'm Luke Wilson, lost a chunk of time
Got to solve the world's issues
Drowning in those of a much feebler mind
And it's flipped my world askew

So give me anything else
Just take me anywhere else
And make me anyone else I don't know

Is it my empathy that's undoing me?
When will I learn to let go?
It is the pride in me; forced to obscurity
No place that I would rather go

I see myself in Monsieur Dujardin
Clinging to a dying art
But as the ship sinks, Fat Mike holds my hand
Still, he laughs at my bleeding heart

The notion that it could be kept elite
I thought I might receive the torch
And though I can't, I'll firmly plant my feet
Something new from scraps I'll forge

And I'll make everything else
Yeah, I'll go everywhere else
Being everyone else all at once
Track Name: Club Trance
You won't hear this song in the club tonight
You won't hear this fucking voice
Looking for your moment in the spotlight
You will compromise your choice

Is that all you want?

I don't give a shit if we have a hit
I don't give a fuck if you say we suck
In every review
It's about the music, it's not economic
We're not gonna stop when our records flop
And that's the truth
Don't give a shit about you

I don't care about the airwaves
Or the video top 10
I don't know if we'll get radio play
Or fill our wallets

But that's not what I want

I don't give a shit if we have a hit
I don't give a fuck if you say we suck
In every review
It's about the music, it's not economic
We're not gonna stop when our records flop
And that's the truth
Don't give a shit about you

You won't see this face in the club tonight
But that's by choice
I'll be home alone with these songs I write
Whether or not it employs

And that is all I want

I don't give a shit if we have a hit
I don't give a fuck if you say we suck
In every review
It's about the music, it's not economic
We're not gonna stop when our records flop
And that's the truth
Don't give a shit about you
Track Name: Surviving the Vortex
Remember what you said when you set me down?
You said, "I'm sorry, but we're done"
Remember what I said when you set me down?
I said, "I'm sorry that I'm not the one"

Well maybe it's time that we got perspective
It's probably high time that I grew some balls
I think it's either time that I got aggressive or forever let go

I took the world in my hands and I passed it off
Saying, "I'm sorry, but I'm no god"
You took the sun in your hands and you tossed it out
Thinking it's you we'd now revolve around

Well take a cake crumb and get perspective
Or set yourself next to a gaseous ball
If that's what it takes until you're reflective inside that black hole

Remember what we sang as we laid tracks down?
(Remember how we laughed at their ignorance?)
Claiming such brilliance though we're dumb
Remember how we danced syncopatedly?
(Remember forgetting what they all thought?)
We looked so foolish but had such fun

Well, I wear a big smile from this changed perspective
Broke my ego so now I just have a ball
Once I saw that happiness was elective and I grabbed hold
Track Name: Gilded Handcuffs
I once climbed the ladder
I once made the bucks
I thought the work I did mattered
But that's all that got me stuck

So take all of my high test scores
And any money I've made
Invest it in something worthwhile
That allows me to create

You think I'm after life's controls?
I think I'd rather serve my soul
These possessions won't leave me whole
That, I know
Track Name: Tragically Optimistic
I can still feel love in this place marked with tragedy
I see the arms outstretch in protection and I know
I see blood on the news so I put my own in a bag
I hope that they carry it out to someone and fill back up their heart

I still carry hope in these times
I still carry trust that there's light

I see flowers on graves and I'm sure there's after-life
Maybe no hell nor heaven, but we live on through those we've touched
I see friends sharing laughs, even strangers exchanging smiles
I'm certain that all the love can outshine the darkness we create

I still carry hope in these times
I still carry trust that there's light

So tell me why you live in darkness
When we see the sun rises each day
So ask yourself, "Why live in darkness?"
You'll soon know that's your own choice

I can still feel love though my friends are not around me
I still have all the good times and they fill back up my heart
I've placed flowers on graves and I've become their after-life
I shall be all their heaven as they live on through me

I still carry love in my life
I'll always carry love in my life
Track Name: A Child's Cry
We're falling down again, and hope is fleeting
Got all these hearts to mend and minds to change
I can be a voice that makes a difference
And it will propound choice and insight thought

And I want for you to notice me
But not the way you notice them
And I want you to fall hopelessly
For everything I fathom
And I want life

Potential has yet to be tapped; minds are not yet open
Maybe it's time we adapt, open up our hearts
This world it screams for love, often misguided
Which is indicative of what we've become

So I want for you to notice me
But not the way you notice them
And I want you to fall hopelessly
For everything I fathom
And I want life

So I want for you to notice me
But not the way you notice them
And I want you to fall hopelessly
For everything I fathom
And I want life

I want life
Track Name: Cycle
I'm headed home
And I am done
I'm not the one

And I'm alone
Back at the start
With a broken heart

This cycle is astonishing
Too good a friend
So head back to the start again

I'm stuck at home
Just left behind
They can't find time

And I'm unknown
And afraid
That this is where I'll stay

This cycle is astonishing
Run by lethargy
And no one's to blame but me

I'm leaving home
I'm on my way
It starts today

And I'll be alone
If that's what it takes
I've raised the stakes

This cycle was astonishing
But it will be no more
'Cause I'm busting through that door
Track Name: My Home, Their End
I miss the long days waiting here
Watching friends leave home for home
Ridicule, immaturity
Shaping lives and friendships sewn
And though I've watched good lives change
I've even watched some disappear
That won't keep me from sharing love
To prevent the pain I fear
And even sitting here with you
On this pavement from my past
Brings back faces and smiles
Names written upon my casts
And though some say those days are gone
There is nowhere that they went
For they are still within me
Not past, part of present

My words, my tendencies
My values and morals
Built in this place
Friends and teachers give counsel
And though I may leave here now
I will take this place with me
It is inside of me

This was my second home
But their departing gate
And though the future is unknown
I'll never leave this place
But it is more fitting to say that this place will not leave me
In every decision I make, it's in everything I see
Though I may travel far
This place will always be in my heart
Track Name: Just Because
A familiar foe stands in the mirror
My voice is the critic that I hear
Claiming I've done no good
Am I wrong?

We've been around these past 4 years
Fighting with verbal bandoliers
As the bullets fly of "could" and "should"
Is this too long?

Well who's to say we haven't made it?
Or determine what's good or bad?
If you measure success with dollar signs
Then you've already failed
If you think you could measure success at all
Then your coffin has been nailed

Things come and go as time goes passed
Empires fall, but art still lasts
Creative minds live on forever
Will I die?

Achievements fade, possessions lost
You fight to keep, always exhaust
Then immortal hands cut through the tether
Did we make good life?

Well who could say if we'd ever make it?
Or there's such things as "good" and "bad"?
If you think you could buy anything of value
Then you've truly lost your path
If I were playing music for the money
Well, I'd fucking stop right now
Track Name: Embrace the Maze
I've got no hopes, I've got no dreams
That I haven't already achieved
And I have no intention
To place myself above anybody

So they call me a fool
I'm too idealistic, like a child
These are the rules we all play by
Find the ladder and climb

But this is me all grown up
And this is me taking on the world
And this is life without walls

I've got no plans for meteoric rise
Or attaining lots of property
And I have no ambition
To escape out of the bourgeoisie

From within I watch the rat race
And feel pity for
All the ones who value the cheese more than the maze

Well this is me all grown up
And this is me taking on the world
And this is life without walls

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